Paddled reflections

The week with me has been a bit strange between communicating with a few people after returning from last weekend, completing a few pet projects and needless to say reflecting on mentoring and the role of spanking within it. I also know what a good paddling feels like!!!

I suppose the first thing I would say is not being aware how many swats I was going to get was different, finding myself focused exclusively on the lesson my bottom was being taught, with no possibility of gritting through it. Emotionally, I found myself letting out ows freely, acknowledging my feelings where in most other types of discipline I shut them down which one reason spanking works well with me.  I process it emotionally so much better.

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Submitting my younger self to the authority of a grown up felt very comfortable, even in a way protected although from now on I’m to be spanked very much when they feel I require it without exception.

Sometimes people might say “aren’t you embarrassed by it”? My honest answer to that would be no because in most sorts of relationships there are common understandings  if not rules  about how things are done and things happen to those in them if they are not  respected. Often there are consequences such as not being invited to things again, being pushed out of a group, the only real difference here is it’s pretty much a child like consequence to which the offence that caused it is forgiven afterward. I’d rather take a spanking and in time change my behaviour than be just cast out and too many folk cast me out in the past rather than teach me the rules in the first place.

Equally it doesn’t matter to me a sizable chunk of my friends know  I’m held to account and that I am spanked because it’s like during your childhood -it’s a common playground currency – and they accept it’s better to learn from it, deal with situations better and be a bit more mature. With me we know it’s impossible to do fully adult for medical reasons but it’s not quite rocket science to help me act more like a responsible child instead is it?

There’s a good piece here about how spanking slots into the life of littles although it’s from a DD/lg take:  Spank me Daddy and give me Rules

It might be just about a half year into this but I do feel more responsible even if do still need correcting at times, for effectively going back and having more parental style input and child-like punishments in my life. For once I feel my emotional age is in double digits.

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About Joanne

Fun lover with strong sense of the absurd and 180 degrees different.
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